There is no denying it.
When it comes to essays, I can be that one annoying person who just talks about how much I enjoy them. The only problem is, when it comes down to it I am just rubbish at bringing the focus to a level it should be at.
Normally this would be simply solved by quickly blocking Facebook and TV sites off my Chrome and blasting up the classical music. Only problem is that this time the distractions are coming in many more different forms.
Number one:
I dislike, no, despise people who write in library books.
Ok, don't get me wrong, when I own a book I can be a right old scribbler. There is nothing more I like than to add tabs everywhere and write down handy little notes in the corner. Makes me feel a bit more intellectual. Only thing is, they are my books.
When someone writes in a library book, it is not their book. Not only this, but usually the things they underline are unhelpful and distracting. Their notes also usually consist of the handy 'Good point'. They do not deserve to enter libraries. Ever.
Number two:
The idea that these are some pretty darn important essays.
These are my final essays of third year. I kind've need them to go well.
Because of this, I have proceeded to do extreme amounts of research. I am kind've going overboard... This means that I am developing more and more random arguments I should include and I think I have now overstepped the realm of making sense and gone into goo-goo land.
Lots of research doesn't mean great essay.
Number three:
I can't get the idea of the future out of my head.
Recently applied for a couple of internships. Got rejected.
Recently applied for job at uni. Rejected.
I have a whole year to go at uni I know, but because of this I cannot stop thinking of everything I intend to do with this following year. In fact, I think the thoughts of what I hope to do and achieve next year are renting far more space in the ol' brain than this silly essay malarky. Once again I am probably trying to go to the extremes.
There are so many different areas of work I am interested in heading into that I feel like I need to jam pack my CV with everything in the world. In fact, part of why I am even writing this is involved with future career aspirations so I have another thing to tick off the list, and I'm not exactly ashamed about it. I have even started to step up Twitter usage and am trying to buff up my Facebook. After the essays pass, this shall only go even more overboard, but hopefully, it will work.
So all in all, I kind've can't wait to get these essays over and done with for once.
I freaking love to read and I freaking love to research, but right now there are just so many other things I want to get done on top.
Guess I had better get down to it. Would probably help if I didn't sit and write a blog.
